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I can' t figure out how to edit/post videos!
I took some videos in my old house and in Central Dairy yesterday, but I gotta figure out how to put them on my blog page, so for now, I will just tell you about it.  It's gotten a little less odd to be in JC than in the past.Been in the parsonage at least three times now, so it's not as surreal as before.  When I was there last summer, I had used up all my legs and couldn't climb the stairs, so this time we had lunch first so I was able to climb the stairs, in my awkward manner.  There way a little girl doing her Christmas shopping in my old bedroom.  I told her that I used to live there and this was my old room.  She said, "I knew this was a house, but I didn't know anyone ever lived here!". Surreal.
Denial is a useful concept and not just a river....never mind.  Most pros Thu n k denial just means you' 're not accepting reality, but it is a lot more complicated than that.  There are four levels of denial.  The first is "I don't believe it,"'.  The second is, "I know it's true,  but it's not going to stay true.".  The third is, "It's true,it will stay true, but my life won' t change in any way.". And lastly, " It's true, it's going to stay true, but I don't have any feelings about it.".  I live quite nicely in the last stage most of the time!  It's not a bad thing to stay the there, btw, because if we spent all of the time in our feelings we would not be able to function in the real world! So I toured my old house in my protective denial. I was able to reminisce without feeling cheated or bitter, and you know what I discovered? My sister's room was significantly bigger than mine!  Now I'm bitter!
Eating ice cream at Central Dairy eased the pain a little!
Today my  friend Jere is coming  so I will tell you about that later.
Bye for now.