Hello

It's been awhile.  I have been over-thinking.  I have been dithering about subjects to explore and whether I can be interesting or deep or insightful.  I have lost the essence of blogging, which, to me, is to write what is on your mind... and I have a lot on my mind,  I am political and emotional.  I am concerned about my future and whether I am doing anything that matters.  I am wondering where my life is going and how will I  manage my increasingly more annoying and debilitating MS symptoms.

So rather than trying to come up with some interesting topic for you, my small and simple blog, I am going to try to make this an actual blog and give you my current thoughts feelings and occurrences. I don't want it to be a diary because my day to day life is just not all that interesting.  

So here is what is on my mind right now

I have come to realize that I have two of the most n-sentimental men in my family.  My husband used to be at least a little enthused by things like birthdays and Christmas, but somewhere along the way he became a curmudgeon extraordinaire!  We put up a tree for Christmas, but the rest of the decorations sit in unopened storage bins.  I know what the problem is, but he won;t say it  even if he is aware.  He is the one who does the lion's share of the work.  If I do it, he gets mad because he is concerned that I will hurt myself or break something.  But if I don't do it, it doesn't get done.

My son is not much better.  We left his ornaments off the tree until he got back from school, and I had to basically beg him to hang them up on Christmas Eve.  Plus, he couldn't come up with anything he wanted as a gift, and he  s not the most gracious gift  recipient.  Where did I go wrong?!

We went to see Star Wars on Christmas day.  We saw it at the I-Max in 3D which was way cool.  Dana got miffed at me for eating popcorn.  I know the sound was annoying him, but it is annoying to me that he didn't just suck it up or eat some himself.  It is unnatural to not have popcorn at the movies!.  I really wanted to get a picture of the three of us in our 3-D glasses, but there was not even a glimmer of cooperation for this particular photo op.

So as usual, my friends and family have lovely pics of festive homes with big family dinners and general Christmas frivolity, and I got nada.  

All right.  It sounds as if I don't appreciate my family.  I do.  They are phenomenal in so very many ways, and I am no picnic for them to manage, I am sure.  Just need to vent regarding my sad little holiday celebrations.  There are more important things than Christmas decor, most of the time!